Leaving

I fear you
And
I fear you not,
And I fear not just you
and what you could do
I fear you leaving
Me
Entirely.

I fear you fear
The same
Of me,
As well.

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Things Have Changed

Written 2017

2011 – Age
“He’s an old man, ignore him.
Don’t let his talk bother you–he’s stuck in his ways, you can’t change him now…
But things have changed, so you don’t have to worry about it.
It’s not like there will be a cross burning in the front yard tonight. ”

2003 – Waiting
Things have changed

“Things have changed,” I’ve been saying that to myself my entire life. Meanwhile,  at the same time I have felt a great urgency in the need to “save the world” from the unchanged.

But things have changed. I want to believe that, to feel safe; Continue reading “Things Have Changed”

Tracing Past II

May 2017
Finding roots
of ancestors
uprooting,
dredging,
supplanting,
shooting,
maiming,
reading,
covering
revising,
stealing
pounding,
Plowing,
shaping
hunting
eradicating
crosspollenating,
banning,
ruling,
Regulating,
Challenging,
shackling,
hoping
teaching
lifting
falling,
covering
crawling,
Subjectively, empirically
rationalizing
Cause, effect
Affect,
Questioning, answering
Learning
Morals,
Morale.

Tracing Past I*

May 2017
Novice genealogist
tracing back decades,
Centuries traveling
Through ancestry
search and check
see map names shifting,
like platonic masses,
nations forming
Imploding, exploding,
political heat melting
meta
physical,
social,
spiritual,
living structures
living documents
living beings.

*Note: I have become the self-taught genealogist trying to trace my family’s roots in the US, and prior to immigration to the United States of America (some hundreds of years ago, some more recent). This 4 part poem is based on the things I have come to learn about my family paths here, and the political and social historical events that led them all to the US. It’s an experience that I think more people should try to do (though I realize it’s not something everyone has the information to do so with), it makes it easier to understand why things have come to pass in more recent years, as well as to feel more human, in the reality of what we take for granted, and how different things once were, for the ancestors we learn about. I aim not to place value judgement on the individuals who were my ancestors, because they were still human, good, bad, or otherwise, they had their qualities that genealogy does not allow us to necessarily see. But, I am able to appreciate better the world events that shaped their lives, and as a result my own; as well as be more empathetic to others on their own life paths, now.